First I would like to wish all my followers and the folks who come by to read and comment here. Hope you have a safe, healthy, and happy 2014.
Now just to set the record straight I don’t do new years resolutions, the last one I made was about 8 years ago and it was to not make any more New Years resolutions. That is the only resolution I have kept faithfully and have stood fast by it.
2013 was quite the year for me, it brought Kayla into my life which has been an amazing journey for us both. I have been stretching my Dom muscles in ways I hadn’t thought possible. I’ve learned quite a bit about myself as a person and while I know our journey is just beginning there is a lifetime of learning and growing to do.
Through the past year and the growth of our relationship I have begun to understand how and where I fit in with this amazing community of BDSM. While I have always had a nurturing personality it took a bit for me to understand and see how I was a natural Daddy Dom. Like most I had this vision of age play and incest which does nothing for me.
Instead I learned it was about being her protector, being her safe haven in the maelstrom of life, it is about guiding her. Through this I learned more about the man I am then I have in years prior.
I have embraced the sadist in me and accepted him for who he is and allowed him his time in the sun as well. He had always been there lurking beneath the surface and I was ashamed of him. In fact it was actually a big part of the depression I had dealt with years ago because I was suppressing a big part of who I am.
The past year also saw me getting active in the local D/s community. I attend several Munches in my area along with some social gatherings and I even played in a public Dungeon.
I have learned how to use a flogger, cat-o-nine tails, and have been learning the ropes along with other various toys.
Personally I have broken some boundaries as well. Earlier on in the year I did my first long distance motorcycle trip, an 800 mile round trip ride along the coast. It was also the first time Kayla and I met face to face. It was an exhilarating trip all the way around. I didn’t know if I could handle a ride like that since all my riding prior had been locally commuting to work or day trips of maybe 100 miles round trip.
As prepared as I thought I was for the trip I found myself dealing with cold weather and rain. It taught me something about my inner strength as I persevered and made the trip both ways.
Work wise I have found myself exerting my opinions more often. Speaking up and being heard when it matters, not just to hear myself talk.
I have also been branching out doing some freelance work and I am looking forward to doing more with that in 2014 along with the possibility of doing some job hunting as there is no longer anywhere to move up where I am currently at.
Kayla and I are working on bringing our relationship closer in the coming year. While neither one of us are opposed to travel it would be nice to be closer to one another and begin to take our relationship to a new level. In her own right she has been an amazing influence on my life bringing out the best in me, we compliment one another well on many different levels.
When I was going through a procedure for my back in August she was there by my side every step of the way, our connection is thus that she even felt some of my pain from the first injection.
I’m looking forward to what 2014 has to bring O/our way. Will it be a smooth road with no bumps and turns?
Of course not, but such is life, but what I do know I will meet it head on with all the gusto I have to muster.