Things have been quiet here since I returned from my last visit with Kayla. In part I will admit that it has been partially due to a touch of despondency on both our parts knowing that it will be some time before we see one another again. Looking ahead and what I need to accomplish between then and now almost seemed like climbing Mount Everest; insurmountable! There were times I wished she were here to be by my side so we could traverse them together. Silly I know as the whole point is to do the things needed to be done to get her here.
Finally sitting back and taking a look at the big picture I began putting things into perspective. In actuality there were and will be things that she can help me with even over the distance. I tasked her with one thing which she performed flawlessly as I knew she would and compiled a list for me. Today I went through that list and began whittling it down; knowing what I was looking for it didn’t take long. The list is now cut in half and tomorrow I will then fine tune it.
Each day I make a list of what needs to be done and I take a bite of the elephant, eating it one bite at a time.
We are close, we are tight, we are moving towards a goal and it is happening; the wheel has begun to turn. Each day we talk about what has been and what is still ahead. Will it all work out flawlessly? Most like not; you know, the best laid plans of mice and men. I have no doubt there will be speed bumps, but we will adjust.
Will everything happen according to plan, in a perfect world hopefully. But again if not there is Plan A, Plan B, Plan C, etc.
While I was there we went out to lunch; I took her to our favorite restaurant. The food there is an orgasm of the mouth, such flavors of spices and culinary delight that is borderline sinful. While there we talked about where we started, how much we have both grown in the past year. How close we have grown to one another.
We talked of how she has grown in her submission and in turn I in my Dominance. Our relationship is blossoming and growing. I look forward to the day she will be here with me. It has been quite the journey for me, I am unlearning past behavior and am learning, growing as a person, as her Daddy, as her Dom.
We talked of how we see our relationship in the future as it continues to grow. Where her submission is going, where she wants to go with it. My Dominance is changing as I learn and grow. I am shedding old skin and putting forth new.
This woman, this babygirl, this little has touched me in so many ways and on so many levels. I am her guide, her mentor, her protector. Hearing her squeee in delight puts a smile on my face. When I see her slipping into sub space during a scene, knowing she trusts me to be there for her to take her down and then be there for her to bring her back up once more fills my soul with joy.
Listening to her talk about her writing projects and the ideas she has boiling inside her just waiting to be brought to life is nothing less then amazing. Her excitement overflows like a boiling cauldron.
When she shares things with me on FaceBook or Tumblr and I feel her delight it puts a smile on my face and in my heart.
I look forward to the day she will be curled up in my lap. I look forward to the day she will be kneeling at my feet. I look forward to the day we will be reading together and so much more.
I look forward to the day she will accompany me to the munches and becomes a part of the community here that I have come to know and love.
Today I realized that I truly can talk to her about anything and everything without reproach. A woman that is truly there for me in every way.
I love her and am proud to be her Daddy.
She is beautiful, she is amazing, she is Mine!